Make Believe

Hello Everyone!!!

It's been a while since I've updated... I started college and so far its kind of fun.

Right now, I'm hanging with a bunch of people waiting for six am to roll around so we can all register for classes. It's like we're having one big party you know? So much "fun". Haha. We're all watching The Grudge to pass the time. I love this movie. It scares me to bits, still, but I just love the way it's made. Japanese horror films have got to be the best horror films out there. Honestly if I were to make a film it would be horror... Japanese style. I don't know why but the way they film it, cinematography wise and stuff, it intrigues me.

I know I should probably write more... but I'm too lazy.

Have a good rest of the day everyone!

So, I realized I haven't posted an entry... in forever.

I am getting ready to leave for college.

This is a big step in my life. I'm leaving my family and friends behind, and going on to make new friends. I hope that this experience will teach me something in life- or reality, if not then I just hope that I learn something while I'm there. I am going to college for a degree in Film and Animation- now I don't really think I'll stay there for that four years... but you never know.

I know what most people think when I say I'm going in for Film. They always have that big eyed look and then that long "Woooow" that follows after. They're thinking, well she's never going to make it. And that's what drives me more to pursue this career. I want to prove to everybody that, yes, I can make it. And I will make it. Just wait and see.

I really feel that once I get myself into LA, something big will happen. I don't know if I'll make it or  break it, but at least I tried. And that's what some people don't even do. They never try to make it. They never go out and pursue their dreams because they're too afraid to fail. I'm not. I've failed so many things in my lifetime that I can stare failure down in the eyes and not flinch- even though I've only lived for 17 years (almost 18 in a couple weeks). But I just know that I can do this, I know I can make it. I just have this feeling... and it's so hard to describe to people when I tell them why I want to be a filmmaker. I just do. I have this passion to show the world how I see it, I want them to see a new perspective in life and I want them to experience a new way of cinema.

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Leaving friends is hard. Especially when you've grown close over the years, just enough that you finally can trust them with your thoughts and dreams and secrets. Now, I have to go make new ones. But I'm definitely keeping the close friends, because they're my constant. They're the ones that keep me with reality. I tend to lose myself in my world... my fantasy per se.

Leaving family is harder. I've never spent more than a week away from my mom. We are as tight as can be. I tell her everything, and she is always there to listen. Even when I was having friendship problems when I was younger, she was always there to tell me that "they don't deserve" me or "they don't know what they're missing". She was my best friend, and is still my best friend. It sucks because this week, my last week of being at home, she has to work until 8 oclock at night. By the time she gets home, she's tired and doesn't want to do anything... and it's like my last week with her and I barely get to see her!! It's horrible. I hate her boss. And my dad... I'm daddy's little girl. I can't imagine how this is going to affect him. I know I'll miss him dearly.

Excuse my little rantings today...

I know that this journal is supposed to be for my writings, but I think that it's going to become just my journal and I will post a snipbit of my stories here and there.

Well, food is ready, so that's my cue to leave.

xoxo

My story is now being posted on Fictionpress.com the link is: http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2700174/1/Ones_Gift_is_Anothers_Curse

I have fixed Chapter One a bit so it is a little better. If you want to keep reading my story, please check it out!!! I will be posting the beginning of another story I am working on in a few days. I think once I've gotten myself situated with the story I'll start posting things up. Thank you for your comments on the story. I really appreciate it!!!

I am going to NC in a few days. I can't wait, I'll be visiting my grandparents and my sister while I am down there. I hope that I'll get some inspiration while I am down there. :)

I have really nothing else to say, except for I'm packing.

Please check out my story on FictionPress.

              I take it back. School just added to my bad feeling about this place. I dreaded going there. What if I accidentally touched someone and found out his or her darkest secret? What if someone touched me? It would be like Oklahoma all over again. I shuddered at the thought. Small town equals many dark secrets. You wouldn’t believe what went on down there. Between the multiple abusive parents and the secret drinking parties (I was never invited to) things started to get ugly. But no one knew I knew, up until the incident.

              My dad pulled into a parking spot. I looked at my new school. It was huge. It must have been like three times the size of my old school, and that contained the junior high school as well.

              Manchester West High School. There’s more than one high school here? I sighed as I moved to get out of the car.             


             “You sure you don’t want me to go in with you?” My dad asked again for the umpteenth time.

            “Yes, Dad, I am sure. I’ll be fine.”

            “Okay, don’t be afraid to call me okay? You got your cell phone?” My dad looked at me cautiously, maybe he was regretting the decision to move me my senior year. I told him I did, and he let me go.

            Walking up those steps into the building was intimidating. Not only did it seem like it took forever, but also the people watching me didn’t help much. I walked into the school and found the main office right away.

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First post on my new computer. Does anyone know what this means? It means that I am probably going to be typing a heck of a lot more!!! Yay! I am so happy that I got my very own lap top so I will be able to work. I will probably be typing up a lot of more of my stories and posting some of them on here... or my FictionPress page.

That's it for my update. I will be posting up a new chapter in a few days or so... after I finish it.

So long!!

The foliage surrounded me as we drove towards my new hell. I let "old hell" back in the middle of nowhere. Literally. I lived in this small town in the great ol' state of Oklahoma. The name of the town- irrelevant. It was a small town, which meant those people had a small town mentality. They didn't take to change or "new" things lightly. That was partly the reason why I was headed to my new hell. This time it was in a city. So, hopefully, I would be more accepted. If, of course, they accept people like me.

Only time would tell.

"Lexi, what are you thinking about?" My little brother Tristen asked. My eyes moved from the window to his little green beady eyes.

"What our new house will look like." I replied. He smiled a gap-toothed smile.

"I hope it has swings." He said lightly. At our old place he had a swing set that he always played on. He was upset to leave it. I smiled back at him. Tristen was the only one in my family that accepted me. He was only six.

"Me too, Tris, me too." He closed his eyes and leaned back into the car seat. I looked back out the window. A couple more hours, and we'd be at our new house. 

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I think That animals DO have a sense of humor. I mean sometimes when I'm doing something and my dog is just lying there, and I end up tripping or dropping something, I can see that he starts to smile... you know one of those "dog smiles". It's funny though...

Hey I'm sorry I haven't been on lately. I think I lost interest in my NANO. Sorry anyone who was getting into it. Haha. I think I'll just start posting some of my other stories I'm starting to work on. They already have a few chapters written out and stuff.

So, 1st bump in the road: I got my purse stolen awhile ago... in it was my USB. That  held the majority of my works and I am deeply upset by this, BUT I am happy that I DID post most of it on my FictionPress and FanFiction accounts. I lost only a couple of stories... and a few scripts. But I'm trying to stay positive and think that this is just another obstacle in life I have to get over. :)

2nd bump in the road: Writer's block. It goes hand in hand with the loss of my USB. I was deeply depressed about the fact I lost ALL of my stories... and mad that I didn't back them up on my external hard drive. That my imagination seemed to have escaped me. :-\. I hope it comes back soon?

Those are the two major bumps in the road at the moment... and I'm hoping that I won't get a third. But what can you do?

I want to adapt this book into a script. But I'm not sure if I should get permission from the author first- or just do it. I mean, I'm going to do this just for fun, and if it's good enough... I could contact the author and be like "Hey I wrote a script based off of your book! Wanna read it?" But I don't know if that's practical. Haha. I had it almost a quarter of the way done... but then that darn USB thing again. Haha. I'm just going to start it all over I guess. I don't think what I was doing before was good enough.

Life has been pretty crazy this past few months. I graduated from high school!!! Yay! And I'm getting myself ready for college. :) I'm excited but I'm also scared because this will be the first time I'm not going to be with my peers that I grew up with. It's a new challenge though. I'll get to meet new people (and possibly create a character or two based off of them) and I'll be able to learn exactly what I want to. Which is great. I don't know. We'll see I guess.

So what story am I going to post up? Well... I have this one story. I just have it written out by hand at the moment... and I haven't posted it up anywhere. It's called One's Gift is Another's Curse.

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I'll post it up next time I'm on. Hopefully I'll be on more.

Until next time...

I'm sorry.. I've been so busy lately.

I got my purse stolen the other day, and guess what that means?

- I lost my usb. With all my stories, scripts, lyrics, and school work on it.

I'm going to try to write some more... but I don't know how I'm going to survive without it. :(

I'll try to update more...

So, yeah, I sadly lost NANO and I couldn't finish the story. But I still have the other chapters that I had written so far...  I'll post chapter three...

 

( Read more... )I'm thinking about posting up some of my other stories and song lyrics.

I've been banned from writing for awhile til my wrists heal. So I'll post up my word counts and such on a later date...

Okay, so I'm going to post the next chapter on here.

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So, that was the second chapter of my wonderful (unedited) Nano story. Please leave a comment if you want to.

Total words now: 5,805

I'm moving a lot faster than I did last year. *crosses fingers* I want to at least hit around 8,000 or 10,000 by Friday. That's a big goal... but I'm also dreaming big. Haha.

School was a drag... couldn't work on my story much because we had to take notes a lot. Boo. *thumbs down*

So, now... my word count is: 4680.

Haha. I got sidetracked watching the news about the election day and stuff. I'm a little on the edge with the "winner" (we won't know if he actually won until the actual Electoral college places their votes at the end of this week) because I'm not sure if he is the right person for now... But still, it's awesome. I like him, but there was some policies I didn't like. 

Anyway, I'm done talking about politics. The election is over and so is the discussion. Haha.

So, my wrist is getting better. Haha. I don't think it was carpel tunnel now, but possibly the beginnings of it.

The Twilight Soundtrack came out today!!! I downloaded it from iTunes and it's now on my iPod forever. I love it, ESPECIALLY ROBERT PATTISON'S TWO SONGS. Haha. It is awesome.

I should get to bed now...

There is school tomorrow, even though I just want to lock my house and hide in fear for a terrorist attack "to test the mettle of this man." 

Goodnight and Good luck.

Okay so now I know what my word count is... *drum roll*

3,614 words!

Not the goal I was reaching for by the end of tonight, but you know, I got to give my poor wrist a rest. Luckily there's no school tomorrow due to the election (it's held at my school). So, I'll be able to work on it all day tomorrow... until I have to go to work, at three. BLAH.

Anyway, I promised you all an excerpt of my story... so here's the prologue and the first chapter... after the LJ cut.

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So that's my first two chapters of my nano... What do you all think of it so far? That was written on Day 1. I'll post up Day 2 and 3 later.

But for now, I'm going to bed.

Goodnight.

Third day of Nano and I already feel my wrist starting to hurt. Haha. It wasn't this bad last year... I wrote all day at school, and I now have at least over 3000 words. Not really sure the exact word count... but I'll get to it later tonight when I type it up. I have to work tonight. *sighs* But hopefully I'll have time to type up my story. (I'm writing it down in a notebook and then typing it up so I can see how many words I wrote. It's a little hard to count by hand.) And I'll put up the first few chapters on here.

Well, that's all for now.

Adios!

So, work and life is getting in the way of writing my Nano!! I want to just sit and write in my book for a whole day with out disruptions. Of course, I can't do that.

First day: 974 words.

Not as much as I wish it could be, but like I said work got in the way... and then my boyfriend wanted to hang out.  Oh well. Haha.

I'll post an excerpt when I'm on my other computer. And I'll post my next word count at the end of the night.

Au revoir.

EDIT:

Second day: 2718 words!!

Hey everyone!

This is the place where I put my writings and other creative "stuff" on.

For starters, the month of November is coming up so that means it's NANOWRIMO time! =] I'll be updating my chapters and word count as I go along... and I'll also be talking about the process, and possibly asking for some help. Haha.

my username for nano: fairyworld1217

Hopefully I reach the 50k goal. I'm definitely determined this year to make it. =]

So, that's all for my first post!!

Ciao!